Spring Cleaning [part:FOUR]

{Then, why do I make it complicated every time? I’m not sure, but I think that the way I function is as if I am partitioned exactly in half: one half brain and the second half heart. But unlike a partitioned hard drive or computer, both sides interact. And when I say interact, I mean they fight. They fight all the time. } May 10, 2015. {Just on the verge of me breaking, I am re-patched. I assume it’s you with the needle and thread in hand, stitching me up every time that I tear.} November 12, 2016. [ . . . ]


There is a permanence that settles into written words. Like a surrendering of thought, a writer subjects herself to questioning, misunderstanding, and definition. However, hesitancy can be an even more dangerous restraint: a constant cycle of thinking and rethinking until either emotion provokes the explosive expression or logic suppresses unborn thoughts. [ . . . ]